[Shinji is sinking into that usual mix of relief and envy that comes from hearing about other persona users-- he's still reeling that this can happen without someone purposefully creating it. He's torn between being deliriously glad that NERV's method isn't still happening, that he stopped it, and wishing his persona could have been like that. Even the new one doesn't feel like a part of him, it feels like a ghost.]
[But that doesn't last long enough to really spiral, because it occurs to him as she talks that he does know what happened to her mother. He killed all the test subjects when he brought the basement down, so even if they did still have her or her body around...]
[He feels nauseous. He drops eye contact entirely and has to swallow a few times before he's sure he isn't going to actually throw up.]
If you... If you want, I can... try to answer questions. I was there longer, and-- and I've read some things they didn't want us to have.
[And, you know, he was directly responsible for some of it.]
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Date: 2021-07-05 07:16 pm (UTC)[But that doesn't last long enough to really spiral, because it occurs to him as she talks that he does know what happened to her mother. He killed all the test subjects when he brought the basement down, so even if they did still have her or her body around...]
[He feels nauseous. He drops eye contact entirely and has to swallow a few times before he's sure he isn't going to actually throw up.]
If you... If you want, I can... try to answer questions. I was there longer, and-- and I've read some things they didn't want us to have.
[And, you know, he was directly responsible for some of it.]